Sunday, June 13, 2010

Little steps...


I've finally reached the staircase or at least I hope I have. It is overwhelming but it's a nice phase. I've never worked this hard before. I've reached Standard 10th and this is weird, overwhelming and nice too and far from what I had anticipated it to be when I was a little girl.
The thing about me is I never look back, yes there are phases of nostalgia but that's transient. I like looking ahead-
Yesterday is a cancelled cheque, tomorrow is a promissory note, today is the only cash you have, so spend it wisely.

Although I do anticipate the future but I'm sure that's going to be a lot different from what I had imagined it to be. As little children we had very few concerns ( most of us), I loved that time, I had a fabulous childhood but yet I don't want to back. Tomorrow is the first day of school for me and as usual I'm getting the blues but it's a lot less then it used to be.
This is my last year in school and I do look forward to going ahead but I'm sure I'll miss it. I still remember my first day in school, in an extremely fragmented way but I remember entering a strange place, strange adults and strange children, getting a cream biscuit, I think it was those milk flavoured ones while the smiley face ( a very evil smile) , weird for a 4 year old girl, I was just in Junior Kindergarten. I left this school in the 7th and joined my current school in the 8th, I remember that day, entering a strange place, in the middle of the hills, the song 'Brain Storm' by the Artic Monkeys in my head, I'm feeling a little nostalgic and queasy, actually I feel like sobbing but I have to suppress my tears, strange people ( I still think they're all weird ) , the smell of new bags ( that smell makes me more nervous) and so many other things.

Well, I'll leave all that behind now, tomorrow, a few hours away, I step into the gates of standard 10th, one step ahead, a little step ahead,
These little steps, a little step into life...

Picture from the net - ( fineartamerica.com/featured/mount-washington )

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