The boundary...

I wake up to realize,
That unrequited love is my biggest vice,
Something so sweet is my bittermost sin,
Everything to lose, nothing to win.

I have been told,
My body is good enough to be sold,
I have been told,
That I am so ugly, a man would be cold..

I am just meat with a limbic system,
I cannot guarantee all my thoughts are pristine,
I have red blood flowing through my veins,
Raging hormones rage in vain...

Yet I am warm,
In middle of the eye of the storm,
My thoughts form,
My sensuality will not conform...

My sensuality  will not conform to terms and conditions,
To those who rip apart my very foundation,
Where were you when my eyes ran out of tears?
Where were you where I was numb to my fears?

You just held my hand to get me wet,
Filled my hollow with your seed of regret,
Just so that the needs of your ancestors are met,
Sow your wild oats, so your genes can spread...

You sowed them in soil so fertile,
That she didn't hide,
She wrote about what was in her head,
Her canvas is your biggest threat...

So let her immortalize you,
To an extent that you can see your own fortune,
Fluid as your greatest dispute,
Of love, of lust...

Ugly

Empty,

Yet so full of matter,

So full of emotion,

Words and paintings,

Which would never see the break of dawn,

As the ugliness gets hidden within us,

Accumulating withing our cells,

Making them toxic and hostile.

Only the beauty gets the canvas,

Put on a brave face,

You should smile more...

Why are you so negative?

Is something  wrong?

I can almost feel you're not fine.

If only I could tell you I'm not,

However if I tell you,

You'd tell me I'm wrong,

You'll tell me to look at the side which is beautiful,

Which is as real as German silver,

As fake as my outer demeanor,

If only you would allow me to wipe off the paint within me ,

If I did, you would run away.

The world wants beauty,

The world runs on beauty,

Beauty of nature,

Beauty of people,

Beauty of God,

If you're bitter,

You would be thrown, 

Deep within the ocean,

To join the debris,

That pollute the Earth.

The ugliness within the beauty is shunned,

Almost a crime,

Abandoned deep within,

Contaminating every cell,

Changing the dynamics,

Of world within worlds...

It will break down, 

One particle after another,

Show itself, 

As a disease that cannot be cured,

Where is the beauty now?

The beauty you tried so hard to find?

Has it joined the other side?

Or has the ugliness within you just revealed itself,

In a way you wouldn't have thought.

You see,

It was there,

At every breathing moment,

Intertwining with everything you chose not to see,

Everything you chose not to show.

For this rejection of inner ugliness was for the voyeurs,

Who tore beautiful pieces of your heart and left you as you were, ugly...